Freedom isn't Free.

The world is privy to less than one percent of my thoughts. I deliberately censor most, if not all of what I say. I do not feel free. For one, I don't want to lose my job, unless or until I have another one, and then I won't want to lose that. Two, I don't want to go to jail. Not that I would ever use words in an illegal way, but I'm sure there are those who may in error deem my words illegal. Three... ah! Whatever the fuck!

I'm so tired. And I've had an ear infection for a month. CHC should give my money back. The friggin' Dr. even told me he didn't see my ear drum because of 'debris blockage' (his theory) or swelling (my feeling). Even if his weak ass drops did solve the outer ear-infection, he should have had me come back so he could look at the drum.

I just found out Saturday from a better doctor at Given-UHC that there's a nasty infection behind the eardrum, too.

I've fucking been walking around, half-deaf in my right ear, with loud ringing at night, dizzy, in pain! Because some dude was more interested in God-knows-what than he was about healing me that day.

I paid retail $78.23 for my visit to CHC on 10/24. The vinegar drops the duck-call prescribed were another $19.99.

I paid retail $53.41 for my visit to UHC (Degosbrian) on 11/11. The thirty 500mg amoxicillin caplets the doctor prescribed me were $13.78.

I've been taking a gram and a half of amoxicillin per day since Saturday, and I'm starting to feel better. I suffered for about a month prior to Saturday...

Oh FUCK talk about Saturday- after I saw the doctor I dropped my wallet in the UHC lot. Frantically looking for it, I accidentally locked Koko (pseudonym for my 2 year old son.) in the car along with my wallet, phone and keys. That was a low moment, with the ear infection, and all.

Luckily Koko's a genius and didn't have any trouble climbing into the front seat and unlocking the car. Then I called lost-and-found and they had my wallet- so it all worked out.

The point is, my blog totally rules now. I just throw shit together a lot of people probably don't "get." EG- The whole Bernie=Rocky thing I built up culminating in the bronze statue of rocky canonizing Bernie in front of the classical architecture in the mode of the Capitol, in the city (Philly) where America was born, with a Latin ode to the public good- Nobody fucking realizes how brilliant that is. Woooo!

(By the way- "America," "Patriotism," "The USA," "Our Way of Life," "Freedom," "Liberty," "Justice-" These things mean the Constitution. They are just words without that goddamn piece of paper. )

And it has to be- because I have to condense the brilliance into the time it takes to lift a picture off the net and post it back up. I have no time for this! Why do I do it? Uh oh... Dean Scream....

...eheeayhaaaaaa!!!